after i had a lovely afternoon and evening with David, my new & close friend, i realized that i should not focus too much on those boyfriend thing. somehow, i feel much better to stay what i'm having now, i'm satisfied, but only for now.

 

sorry my mom never give up calling to shower and eat that corn, bye guys

 

 

i was sitting in front of my computer, and i heard my mom and her boyfriend laughing.

wonderful.

i can't remember how long since the last time i felt that, a normal night, a stupid drama, and a brand new fortune. and right now i'm feeling happy.

really, happy.

      岁月往前走，在一个路口，一个停留处，总是会梦醒似的发现当年不曾记得或竟然是毫不察觉的父母的深恩。这样的发现总是让我惊心，我原是这样的无知。

      我这学期的目标就是，在学校开办的技能节中拿得“公共英语二级词汇竞赛”的冠军。是的，我这学期的目标在这学期进行到一半的时候就结束了，刚才在地铁里接到老师的电话，他说我在那个比赛拿了二等奖，并叫我去办公室拿奖。我说，怎么只是二等奖。老师高兴地说，二等奖也够啦。

      其实我心里没有起很大波澜，反而是前几天陪我一起复习的小红一直在地铁里跺脚，她说，拿奖的那个学生一定是熟人。我说，这是中国嘛，没什么好奇怪的了。过了一阵子，她又说，其实我觉得你是拿不了一等奖的了，但我真的替你不爽，你难道说你没感觉么？我想了想说，我明年就拿了。

      在这几天里背单词，中午死活不睡，头真的很疼，想吐又吐不出的感觉，不过词汇量在仍然不丰富的前提下增多了不少。

      昨天我赛完了，今天混沌了一天。于是我决定明天继续。

first i would like to tell you that, there isn't a big problem between me and my mom, really.

 

so the man came. He explained the whole thing to me, about his life, that he wants to give us what he had missed; about his daughter, who likes arts too and does it very well; and about me, he told me that i could put more time concentrate on other subject, although it's still not my favorite. Mike is right, a middle person will let things go easier.

 

so i still can go abroad, but at least after my graduation...yes, i still have a lot of things to do in china!

      我明白，其实不知道自己是不是明白，只是给个大家都可以缓冲的时间，所以洗完澡我就告诉母亲说，“妈妈我决定好了，现在我读好中医和英语，那些我所说的兴趣就暂时当作业余爱好吧。”

      母亲“嗯”了一下。

 

 

        我始终对自己有信心，我的兴趣，我的真正的兴趣，是不会因时间而冲淡的，有起有落，正如我这两个星期以来一直在顺利地计划的事情，就必须想到接受挫折的不期而至。难道你们不觉得挫折的道路才是精彩的吗？！

I just had a conversation with my mother.Turns out she doesn't support what i'm thinking at all. yes, she doesn't. She's telling me that she was doing wrong thing to me, she said i've been living in my own fantasy, but what is reality? To study the subject which i'm not interested in?

 

More than three years ago, i found myself interested in arts, but i didn't officially tell you, because i was afraid you didn't treat it seriously, now i just told you that, and the result was just the same like before. Why i still decided to tell you? because you're one who i always respect.

 

or yes, you were doing wrong thing to me, you showed me how to have my own opinions, thoughts. i even think that i can feel what you felt just now, we both don't like anyone's disagreement, so you can say you're wrong, to made me insist what i decide.

 

so that's what i think i'm good at, arts, ideas. to make you support me finally or save me out from my fantasy, i will call somebody as a judge, at least he can stop our fighting isn't it?

      今天跟熊姐姐&SUSAN逛街，意外发现太阳百货搞特价活动，女鞋大部分都打到了五折，所以，百丽的专柜索性连铁拦都搬来疏导人群了……而我们去到休闲装大部分也打到了六折，所以我毫不犹豫就买下了两件内衣，两条内裤，一条黑色休闲裤，一百块就没了。然后我们又吃吃饭，逛了逛，我又意外发现K SWISS的鞋子打到六折！于是我就把母亲CALL来，她来到的时候差不多晚上11点了（因为搞活动公司营业时间到2点，旁边的公司甚至还连续68小时营业！！），加上我买重大东西的犹豫不决，母亲显得很不耐烦，本来我想是买对500来块的鞋子，结果那些款都好象没了……最后就买了790块的鞋子，是的，相隔不到两个月的时间，我华了一千几块买了两对非常昂贵的鞋子，但我只能告诉自己说贵鞋子是既舒服又耐穿，（事实上的确这样）打这么低的折很少有的，再说，K SWISS和CAT的牌子明年就从深圳撤柜了，说是没拿到代理权。买完鞋子我就跑去买了件薄羊毛衫，111。买完所有东西12点，然后，回家恰纸一算，这两个月共债将近两千圆。

      所以我买鞋的时候对母亲开玩笑说，妈我准备借钱但决不今年还。事实上我在买东西的时候很奢侈，但我只能说，每个人的消费观点不同……