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一条狗的自白我是一条狗,
我很自豪有条与生俱来的尾巴。
小时候,
我总是欣喜若狂的,
无时无刻的甩着我的尾巴,
他们微笑着注视着我。
长大了,
我发现只要使劲的摇动尾巴,
不经意的摇动尾巴,
他们也会高兴起来,分享他们手中的食物。
当我的体形不再长大了,
我开始在想,
究竟以后能否靠着我那神奇的尾巴,
生存下去呢?
他们那时候告诉我,
不可以。
在我依然接受着他们的食物的时候,
我慢慢地发现,
原来,尾巴对于一条狗来说,
是很重要的。
从不知道哪个时候开始,
我不再欣喜若狂,无时无刻的甩我的尾巴,
他们也不再微笑着注视着我了。
从不知道哪个时候开始,
我学习着在什么时候,什么地点,什么情况下,
做出最令大部分他们满意的动作。
比如你的爪举起来了,
我也举起我的爪子。
从不知道哪个时候开始,
我逐渐忘记这些行为的动机,过程,和它带来的挣扎,
因为每只狗,都是一样的。
这些永远不知道什么时候开始的开始,
正如永远不知道什么时候不再享受摇尾巴的乐趣。
要知道,一条狗摇尾巴,
其实是件很累的事。
不过没有一条狗喊过累。
实际上啊,
我的爪子每天都举得发酸。
今晚我想起我的尾巴,
那条让我自豪的,却永远看不见的尾巴。
我企图追着它来咬,
追,咬,追,咬。
我急得要哭了。
不过,
不是每一条狗都会想起自己的尾巴的。
更不是每一条想起自己尾巴的狗会重新享受尾巴的乐趣。
摇尾巴,追尾巴,
我有一条自豪的尾巴。
你有吗? 为更新而更新 各位好。
这是我第一周的新东方新概念3培训。据我所知新东方的课程好象没有限制人数,上次有个人问雅思班有多少人,那个姐姐说,90来个啊,不算多。看来我的雅思班不能在那里上了。不过很幸运地我遇到了个很有实力的老师,他的上课方式很是过瘾,才一周课已经比我一个学期的在学校的笔记都多了。本学校简直是个灾难,就我而言。
An update for updating
So I knew, to write a excellent composition really depends on how many english words you learned, like oblige, we can also use urge, make, stimulate, prompt, etc. I think most of us know these words, however, most of most-of-us just don't know how, where, & when to use, I AM ONE OF THEM. At the class I am probably a tiny more outstanding than they are, but it doesn't mean anything, Tim you have to be humble, you know that. 穷日子 最近的日子过得好穷,好穷好穷。倒不是说没钱用,只是没有多余的钱花。这个月交在学习上的加起来就有1140,自己出了四百。虽然母亲说过,学习的钱再多都可以给,但上星期班主任叫我们交三百多的考试费,我都不好意思向母亲拿钱了,只是不想,尽管最后我还是问母亲拿了一百。
好象已经挺久没有去饭堂吃了,中午啃面包,吃燕麦片,心里不断告诉自己这是吃得健康,活得健康。再说饭堂的东西这么难吃。
虽然我有很多东西想买,但过了这么久了,对我的生活都没有多大影响,于是我断定这些东西其实我都不需要的。其中最重要的一点是不去超市逛,我很少进超市没有拿东西出来的。
放在键盘旁边的现金有105块,撑到下月6、7号。坐车要花去45块,所以从明天开始每天不能用超过3块。其实并没有什么大不了的,学校放着一大包燕麦片,每天还可以从家里偷水果去学校。你闭嘴,人家大明星都是这样吃的。关于吃这方面我真的没有什么要求,除了蟑螂。
省钱还有一个目的,就是想去西安。我问了几个志同道合的朋友,他们问我什么时候去,我说不知道,只是有了个省钱的目标而已。 something I dreamI don't know how to start this -
There should be a sharp sign.
and music, every day has a special theme.
You can also know what music for tomorrow and further.
No seats are same.
And there's a one-person space surround by three walls, a very comfortable seat inside.
There should has a huge table.
I want blue green orange black but no white.
My partner must has same taste in music and movie with me.
So this is something I dream.
I drank some wine, I have to admit I like the smell after drinking some alcohol, deep inside your throat. By 'your throught' I meant mine.
Let's go to bed. a pathetic letterDear Mr.H,
I couldn't stop thinking about you, not that kind of, but is like, can't get you out of my mind. You are too old for me, your body is getting flabby, and I didn't even know you before you decided not to talk to me. When you tell me your career, I didn't really understand it. But I do now, it doesn't make me feel better.
But how fast you are walking! How funny you are smiling! How serious you are listening! Fuck me, all I showed you was my damn father, and my insecurity. Sorry about that, mate. I don't deny that, but there still a huge part of me I forgot to show, well , too late.
Hopefully this moment I don't make anyone sick.
Anyways, I'm having the best days since these years, thanks to my pimple face, prevent me from screw around and focus on what I have. How wonderful it would be if I still have you, as whatever.
Tomorrow I'll wear my white tight t-shirt and jeans, with a black glasses on the road, sweat like pig. Nipples bulge, friends laugh, I don't care. I know I'm fine.
I can wait, till forget about all.
yours,
Tim 昨晚的餐厅那里距离我们家颇远,据说是全世界最大的牛扒餐厅。母亲节,我和母亲加上熊和她母亲再加上熊表哥和他母亲一行六人去那里享受一番。
那天安排有点混乱,本来我们打算5、6点到达餐厅,接线小姐告诉我那段时间不用订位。实际上我们折腾到6点半才到,号称全地球最大的牛扒餐厅让我们足足等了20分钟。我只能结论这世上其余的牛扒餐厅都不大。
我们一进去就看到有五六部游戏机被六七个小孩子围着,接着看到一条长龙,排队拿免费沙拉,坐下来之后听熊说沙拉和面包都可以免费拿。毕竟中国人不是吃一块烤肉饼就能饱的。我拿了一整碟面包,其中蒜茸面包的质量最好,完全没有重量不重质的意思,很多时候,餐厅的品位都是体现在这些细节上,不过熊说,到下次我们来面包就要收钱了。 我要求母亲不能叫一百快以下的东西,而另外两家的母亲都很体贴,叫了价格中等的主食: 果木牛扒一份 杂扒两份 美国猪扒一份 乳酪什么牛扒一份 法式剑鱼扒一份 木瓜雪蛤两份 酥皮海鲜汤一份 心太软一份 ¥578 上菜的速度对于一个号称……来说,算很快的。我经过的时候发现厨师们在锯一块硕大的肉,中间还有点血红,我想是把牛扒弄得五成熟就分出来按照不同要求再调烹吧,虽然我搞不懂此举是不是有根据的,但并没有给我留下好印象。除了熊,我们都是第一次来,所以我们都对别人胸前的食物感兴趣。我点的是鱼,很多原因使我不想点牛扒。母亲给了一口她的给我,好吃。 其余的都很一般,我的意思是,在这间号称……餐厅里,这样的口味太让我觉得去了间格调高雅的快餐店了。餐牌的设计是为了迎合的广大消费人群,但质量始终只能有一个等级。这就好象在人民桥那间日本料理一样,我说的价格不同而导致质量参差不齐的意思是指当食品价格趋向大众的时候食品不能流于平庸,这好比在珠宝店吃薯条一样感觉怪异。 以上为个人意见。 很认真写的检讨之所以这次活动遇到种种阻碍,完全是因我个人能力以及经验不足所造成的。我记得之前阿班眼睛发亮地交给我这个任务,我却迟迟未能给出满意的成果,这是最使我感到愧疚的地方。 之所以如饥似渴地乞求大家参加这次活动,是因为我绝对不想因为个人的过失而影响班上的每个同学。 在这个过程里,我很深刻的感受到集体力量的重要性,以前我总觉得,只要带头的人有能力,就可以带领整个集体运作起来。但我发现,依靠个人单薄的思想根本无法切合到每个同学的实际想法。更何况我自己是毫无经验的初学者。 其实我了解到,许多同学都希望可以与在其他同学一起参加活动,而他们拒绝参加活动的理由恰恰就是人数不足,其实在几秒钟前并没有人知道这个事实,这又反映了我错误的做法,就是并没有让同学之间的沟通充分。我昨晚突然间想到,换作是我自己,也会有象其他的担心的情况一样犹豫不决。 昨天晚上,我已经有了最后的心理准备,但我仍然不想放弃,因为我知道,决定权并不在我的手上,如果我放弃了,也是我个人自私的决定。 最后,希望大家给自己下周末一次选择,或者是欢聚在一起的热闹,或者是独自悠闲的时光。 (实际上我后面还加上了一句道歉。) 我觉得检讨之后会让自己好过些,
实际上也是。 长假后的第一天 上午四节都是实验课。我趴在实验室桌子上睡了有两个小时。然后起来,课都没上,作业没写,走到阅览室看报纸。渐渐地对自己放纵了。
下午有两节中药课,我真的很有兴趣。但老师不大会组织语言来教授课程,所以……我都不知道下节课是否还继续上。倒不如我自己一个人看书算了。
母亲今晚从太原回来。 Day 7 - 7 daysLa la la.
What did i do?
Mandy said she had a so boring holiday. I heard that last year, and we complained together. This time I did not. I guess I will never say that again. What bore me is someone telling me she/he is bored, except some extreme situation, you know. In the afternoon when I said good bye to my must-read book, I fell down to the sofa and broke my another snoopy cup. Well, thanks for serving me for...4 years?
I'm not excited about my school, but I am very exciting to wear my new clothes to school.
What?! I'm young! Day 6 - happy girls friendsI like having breakfast at Mcdonald's, well I'm chinese, I don't make that kind of breakfast at home, you know. Then I went to my cousin's, she gave me a shirt she doesn't fit it...for now.(ok?) Actually we exchanged it, my shirt is cheaper, but also looking good, and it is now her fourth red shirt. She asked me to pay the rest of cost, but...read my yesterday's blog.
And she couldn't wear that anyway.
In my planning list, today should be a cleaning day, the house. Not so hard, I'm surprised that I have patience to myself for this! Two hours after I finished my another cousin(ok now I named her, Mandy) came home. 10 mins later I realized how much I enjoyed being alone. Don't get me wrong, she's not that bad.
After dinner time was my girls' hanging out, one of them will my go to GuangZhou for school tomorrow. It's actually the first time four of us being together since March. I was still looking for a T-shirt, even I bought two already. When You started buying things you couldn't stop just like you haven't bought anything for a long time you found out saving money was fun. Me neither, I don't know, should I buy one more? Do answer me if you got one. Day 5 - home all dayI went to Bank of China today, checked my account, not much left, started worrying about my mother's day. I want to bring my mom to a nice resturant, with my cousin and her mom. Not sure yet. I still need to pay the language course next week, big trouble comming.
I cleaned up my room, the wall is too dirty, my mom has told me that we're not going to move, it's almost a year since I move in here, too lazy to clean up anything. Even the big carton still there.
White wall is not my favorite, especially it's not white anymore...now my wall is...a little bit childish. I sticked papers on it, by paper I mean Ads, news, and photos, oh, and movie tickets!
I'll show you as soon as I borrow a camera. Some one is boring today. Day 4 - two shirts and one pantsI woke up.
I read my book.
I made a simple lunch, too much salt.
I took a very long nap.
I woke up again at 4 pm.
OH DAMN!
Actually I made a brunch, hot water, noddle, oil, salt. Simple as fcuk shirt.
The salty thing shoulded be my dinner!
Welcome to my day.
I don't really mind people's late, but I do hate myself waiting. I would rather walk around than stand right there. My cousin was 20 mins late...better not complaining, she is one of few people read my blog. By the way, I'm so touching when Szymeck left me thee comments. THREE. Thank you guy, you can be late for 30 mins without complaining from me; )
We realized that go shoping around their closing time is good for bargaining. I'll show you in my photo ablum later. Day 3 - I got a funny haircutWhen I was in a new hair salon I found out no one is actually cutting my hair, but a robot did, "it" was so good, took all what I said, cut wherever I pointed at, but other area - "NEGAVITE".
I was woken up by my aunt's telephone call, to visit her brother - my uncle, right?(there's so many titles from each kinds of uncle) So I left home within 20 mins. Time changed, I don't remember how long ago my uncle still asked me 'do you want...', now he put that special offer to my cousin, and we started talking about China geography.
Before we got my home my cousin was asleep, aunt and I sat in the living room watching "Miss Potter", it was nice. Renee Zellweger...um,rocks! After a film we all took a nap, I was woken up by my aunt's phone again, but this time she's speaking to my grandma, I knew my grandpa was getting not-good. Time changed, my cousin now could be able to speak by her own opinion, when my grandma asked her 'did you miss me?' my aunt said, 'yes! grandma!' but the little girl really-thought-before-said, 'no.' Well she was taught to tell the truth, time doesn't change too fast, you know. But when i was her age I did answer 'yes'.
It reminds me a story - it was from my mom, she said one day I was in front of her and her elder sister, one of them asked me: 'who is more beautiful?' I really-thought-before-said, 'both are beautiful.' Mummy said I was so sweet - which means I'm not now.
This story made me so proud.
Then I cooked for them, and went to ruin my hair. After that in a store I saw a car magazine with a exclusive "THE MINI STORY", I bought it, even car magazine is complete trash for me.
Today's exclusive! --->
![]() Day 2 - Out for DVDsSprayed sun lotion
and rougeberry fragrance,
wore sunglasses,
felt perfectly fine.
Although I just out for DVDs.
It was 3 pm when I came home, I started to cook my lunch. Believe or not! It's delicious. Then I took a nap after I watched Hawl's moving castle, 8:30, dinner time, I made another good dinner, but it's just too much for 1 person. I was watching <House> during dinner, then <24>
11:30, shower
after shower, < The gift> by Cate Blanchett
Both movies are fine.
good night.
One bad thing is when I got here there's nobody on MSN. Am I the only one who has the holidays?
or I'm just wasting time here?
hehe.
good nite again. Day 1 - finall reached my blogHi every one, I have a 7-days holiday from today.
so I'd like to take every day on record, it might be fun!
Space didn't work in daytime.
And that's why I insisted to update my blog even I'm sleepy now.
Mummy won't be home for 7 days, cousin won't be home for 6 and a half. She just left.
I did the laundry, went to wal-mart for food, and went to watsons, a NIVEA sun spray. A hundred was gone. Mummy left me 300, I already spent 1/3 at the first day.
If you want to know my bank account nr. I'll be GRAD to tell you, my dear.
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